Wani . Nineteen and smokeen
Good things come to those who wait, in fact
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Previously, I said that I wanted Steve Madden boots so badly. So, I did! I got them already.
I guess indeed, good things come to those who wait. I've been wanting them for more than a year until the day I got it. I was like happiest mofo alive then.
Unfortunately, combat boots just HAD to be something that is getting in trend here. Screw trends though, right?
I always have to keep reminding myself that I'm not wearing any of that shit for the sake of trends.
Want it but can't have it
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
I hate the feeling where I want something really badly but I can't have it because of many issues.
Firstly, I want Steve Madden Troopa boots badly.
Secondly, I want to go back to school BUT only take music courses.
I can't do any of that! I can't. There are too many restrictions, too many obstacles.
Of course people say "the thing you want badly in life is always the hardest to get".
You'll never know how much longer you have to even achieve any of your goals.
Goodness gracious. I am lost.
Thursday, April 11, 2013
I wish I could do something to help the victim of bully and the bully as well as animals. I've never actually seen a live animal abuse, which I DO NOT want to, because...it just hurts so much ;( But on the other hand,
I've been bullied real good in my younger teens.
Verbally or physically, bully IS bully. No but's or if's. I was a weak person last time BUT only to the bullies eyes and...of course to the people who saw me get bullied but did nothing. I was strong deep inside because if not, then how did I go through all THOSE "FUN TIMES" and made it through everything right? :)
Further more, I was extremely happy when I got to know that those bullies had to repeat their course. So basically, when I was already graduating, they're still STUCK! SCORE! :D
Before they were retained, I even remember praying so that they won't be in the same class as me..but we ended up together in the same class anyways xD So probably about 2 and a half years, we were in the same class. I can't really say which was the worst year ever, when I was 14 or 15, because all I remember is both was kinda bad ; /
I don't know whether to be lucky or not, but the ones who bullied me were BOYS. I knew exactly the reason, or should I say reasons on why they picked on me alllll the time. They verbally bullied me every single day with every single opportunity that they had. I remember crying in class alot. It was pretty embarrassing to do that because people think that I am weak. I didn't fight back with whatever they did to me because I was alone, I had no backup, I had no karate skills and they were boys.
I remember their names, I remember their faces, I remember what each and every one of them did to me. One thing FOR SURE, I know that I'm ABOVE ALL OF THEM. Oh! And I also forgive that for what they've done :)
My school life got worst when I was 14 years old and there's only one thing that made everything better; SONGWRITING. I would go home every single day, go straight to my computer and just let it out through lyrics/songs. It's one of the most therapeutic cycle I've ever done. Until today, I still look through all the lyrics I've written and I won't forget how songwriting pretty much changed my life. I wish people knew about this.
Do something special with the struggles that you face. Instead of leaving yourself in the dark with all your struggles, why not move a step which leads you to the light-the light of hope. If you're not happy with something, fix it. If you can't fix it, fix yourself.
From the bottom of my heart, I wish I could help each and every one/animal out there.
Maybe I will one day? Through a song? Who knows? :D
Three words...Life goes on.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
This is a quote from an amazing book called "Inspiration for a Lifetime". I larrrhhvee that book, Too bad it was from the library. HAH! xD
So anyways, I was watching a short drama episode and now let's just cut straight to the chase. A guy waited for this girl for freakin 5 years after they divorced from their cute & sweet but young marriage. Is that even realistic though? Like really, you waited and wasted 5 years just so you could get back with the girl.
Honestly, I've never seen or heard anyone who would be THAT patient and THAT loyal. Nah-uh...utter bs brah.
People change. Things change. Feelings change. People move on. Life goes on. That's it.
After spending about 5 months with my guitar, I definitely experienced alot of sore fingers. It sounds like as if I trained THAT hard huh...Well, not really. I am still in need of a capo and many other things. I've been trying to make some melody out of the lame chords that I've learned from the songs I practiced.
I don't know if it's even going to work out with those chords but I'm still trying. So recently, it's always been me and my acoustic guitar, my lyrics.
This is my life right now.