Yesterday, 2 December 2011, was the first day of my crazy job. Other than those people who were so unsociable, I think that my day went pretty well. Its confirmed, anywhere and everywhere I go,whether its work or school, there's ALWAYS gonna be someone or some people who will have a problem with me. I tried being friendly but people were just too IGNORANT !!! And I'm here too ignorant to actually ignore them. I just hope they'll realize what they're actually doing.

Selling hats at the streets in town...err, I have to say it is SORT OF my last resort. But whatever, really. Although I felt VERY conscious/distracted/ nervous/embarrassed/uncanny and anxious, I had this excitement going on only because I felt blessed as the sellers I'm working with were so fun and outgoing.

I felt conscious because I was so afraid that I might bump into people that I was once associated with. LOL

Distracted because there were so many frickin distracting people all around !

Nervous, who wouldn't be right ? Selling those damn hats in the midst of so many damn crowds.

Embarrassed because I'm afraid that people might think I look idiotic :(

Uncanny, I'd say that the whole atmosphere was weird.

Anxious because I was worried things might go wrong :/

Overall, I had a nice time and luckily the people I had to team up with, were so FUN. Unfortunately, it won't stay this way. The next time before we start work, we have to do this stupid 'lucky draw' bullshit to see where we have to go and who we team up with. That sucks !

Why the fuck can't we just choose our OWN TEAMS. Urgh

Started the whole hat selling thing at 7pm, ended at 10.

And OMG 3 hours went by like frickin, I don't even know how to explain.

It went by SO slow. I can't imagine doing this for 7 hours, even worse, 12 STINKIN HOURS !!

Might be unbearable for me. Even yesterday just for 3 hours, I actually felt a little bit sick when

I reached home.

I can stand long period, but I can't stand at a long period if it's hot and crowded. I'll get panic and I sweat and that cause me to not be cute anymore !!

While I was doing my work, my friend and I saw an old lady sitting down the floor on the side of the walk way. I immediately stopped for awhile, took out my wallet and did whatever was right and I moved on. It sucks to actually see someone do that, go to a very crowded place just to, you know, ask for $$ I guess ? People never gave any attention to the old lady. I sympathize her alot. When I watched her eat, the look in her eyes, her facial expression, its like I can feel part of what she's feeling.

Right. ANYWAYS, and besides that, when I wanted to cross the traffic yesterday, this very very very kind lady beside me offered me to share her umbrella as it was raining. I rejected though, but May God bless her.

Cried when I got back home. If I were to tell people on why I cried, they'd probably either think I'm weird or I'm lame. I cried for a good cause, I did not cry because I think my life is miserable. I cried because I felt so blessed, and also I learnt one thing abt life; No matter how fucked up your day went/is going, there's always at least ONE positive thing that happened/will happen. It takes only you to realize it and appreciate it.

SHOVE IT INSIDE YOUR MIND WANI. SHOVE IT DEEEEEEP INSIDE YOUR MIND.