I'd like to start off by saying that, ever since I found my love for music by listening to them, learning about them, I knew that I have to do something special...something much more. That is, songwriting. When I'm about 12-13 years old, I went into a secondary school. From there, things change. ALOT of things change. I have been listening to all kinds of music all my life. Although I know that probably everyone does the same thing, I feel like for me, it's more than JUST listening to music.

Back to how things change and how much it affected me...secondary school wasn't a good phase for me, neither was it a bad phase. It's just something that I wouldn't want to go through again at any point of my life. Yes, there were some great memories back then but I have to say that, there were more dreadful tragedies :/ But, whatever. I'm so glad it's over.

You know how crazy it is when something hits you, and all of a sudden, you just feel...I don't know, confused ?

Yeah, and then you keep asking yourself all those why is this happening & what is happening.

You feel hopeless, so so hopeless. I'm sure everyone felt this way before or maybe, is feeling this way right now but, I don't think it's anywhere close to mine.

So, the 1st year of my secondary school was alright. As I said earlier, it's not bad, it's not good either. I was about 12-13, and those were the times where I would take out a piece of blank paper and a pen, insert some earphones in my ear and blast out music and write words down. From there, I started having this feelings called inspiration. I get inspired over little things, something to do with music, to be exact. I get inspired over lyrics especially, and also the meaning of certain songs. That made me so want to do more than just listening to them !

I started making my own songs ever since. Lyrics, to be exact. Over the years, I've realized that songwriting really, really helped me in overcoming obstacles that I faced. I don't really have anyone to talk to last time. I kept things to myself, I let it out by writing them down. I would always come home crying and then writing stuff down all the time. I had a hard time. Honestly, I don't even know how I did all that, all that holding on to deep hope and faith.

I hold on for about 3-4 years, and I'm proud of myself :)

My 2nd and 3rd year, I'd describe them as...disastrous. I had the hardest time during those 2 years. I was treated so, so badly by my classmates. I...I don't even know what to say...

When I went on my 4th year, things started to get better and I thank Allah for that.

I remember while I was in my 2nd and 3rd year, I kept praying all day, hoping that I won't get treated like shit by people in my school, but I guess He wanted to give me a test and see how far I can go with patience and faith. I thank Allah. If it wasn't because of that, I wouldn't feel proud. I wouldn't feel the way I'm feeling right now, about my past. Alhamdullilah :)

So now I guess my story has something to do with my love for songwriting.

I've written songs since I was 13. I am 18 now. It's been only 5 years, I know but I have gained sooooo many experience, from bad to worse, from good to awesome. I wonder if people have noticed that there are alot of songs out there, that are about 'love'. Well guess what, not for me. I write about my life. My lyrics are my diary, literally. It's so straight forward that people can easily know what they're about and I think that's good. I don't like to hide anything in my songs.

I've always wanted to be a songwriter after that

Who knows, maybe I'll get to somewhere ;)